angles_errors

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 04:29:38 GMT

i don't want to be the reason your son's never coming home.

i don't want to be the reason your wife wont come home from the market.

i don't want to be the reason your daughter was killed on her way home from school.

but yet i am.

you are the reason why family sleeps in fear.

my peers don't understand me

my peers don't see the distruction you've caused.

the killings, the raping, the horror.

so i will saddly bite the bullet.

so i will close my eyes when the lights go black over your village.

who ever reads this and knows me...you have no idea that burden rests on my shoulders. this is not some fucking toby keith anthem. this is a simple 20 year scared shitless. take it was you will.

godspeed from afar.

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 01:01:08 GMT

i started classes today.

125 more days till i'm home!

i leave for arizona may 30th.

class seems like it will be fun...but REALLY hard.

its way to cold to function....i cant wait for it to warm up.

i love owen.

there is some rumors i might get to come home a few days early? i'm trying not to put much water in them...but its hard.

i need to study.

i'm surprisingly in a good mood. i think its because i'm straight with the man upstairs. each day things happen to me in a good way that only would happen because of him...before i never had this good of luck.

well i need to go do my two hours of studying a night

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 04:09:14 GMT

I'm alive.

basic sucked...lost weight....can do one armed push ups.

fell in love.

life is going well.

can't complain.

tech school is long.

but i work on jets all day.

july 2nd

heaven.

its what i day dream about.

maggie is rad

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 04:23:31 GMT

I LOVE WHISKEYTOWN.

deal with it.

Fri, 29 Sep 2006 06:17:03 GMT

sometimes i feel like a complete bro when i talk about the air force to my friends because they're all indierocker crap and i dunno just love airplanes...is that bad? i'm not saying im a bro and im not saying im not a indie kid cuz i am...but i just love airplanes and cars like too fast too furious...if those are my worst traits i'm sitting pretty well hahahaha.

love always erik.

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 17:24:27 GMT

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 03:00:32 GMT

Hello livejournal. you are boring.

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 20:47:12 GMT

she'll walk by in a seemingly stable fashion
and she'll grab you by the skin on your bones
but you wont listen to a word of caution
speaking out loud all her intent
and you'll wake up staring into eyes
wondering who was there

who i could have been is last thing on your mind

on ride.

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 16:06:33 GMT

new blog on myspace.

read it.

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 21:29:58 GMT

i got hired at menards.

10.60 what what.

35 hours a week.

goodbye debt.

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 06:27:33 GMT

i'm happy.

deal with it.

im going to be in d-town tomorrow..so will alex, myself and maggie. (maybe chris).

whos hanging out with us.

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Tue, 04 Jul 2006 17:16:01 GMT

i hope you're safe today..i still care about you. i love how kids think they need to tell me when they see you and what you're doing.

this weekend has been amazing.........seriously.

i got a new phone...my old ones speaker went out... i have the same number..just not your numbers!

so.. leave me your numbers

speaking of that whole sprint thing...that was an ordeal for sure....i spent so many hours at the sprint store[s] i had to go back and forth...at least i made friends with the really hot girl that works there named aimee...

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 16:48:09 GMT

i wish we could be friends.

im staying over with the greenwood boys this weekend. woot.

i think i may go visit WI soon. i miss those kids.

so leigh ann IM'd me yesterday..random. i think we're going to hang out?! randomx2 oh well she was a awesome friend befor we dated..that'd be sweet if were friends like sophomore year.

i need more friends people...sign up.

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 22:43:50 GMT

so "eraser" by park is pretty much amazing.

dang being friends would be so amazing. i don't even know how to go about being able to do that..

if you have any ideas let me know...just keep it mind her guard is high, and rightfully so.

like for real this time, i don't want anything other then to be friends, like shes an amazing person and to be able to talk to her is amazing. when she returned my call yesterday, she made everything better.

im staying strong..i fell off and gave up for about a month but friendship is better then nothing to me

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 14:41:00 GMT

p.s. cursives happy hollow is an amazing album. i just got it

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 13:26:58 GMT

i miss amanda. plain and simple. (shh she doesnt have this journal) i try not to be creepy or the weird ex bf..and im doing a great job at not being. i just need to stay strong and do what she wants for now. she was the greatest gf ever..normally by now i would have given up, dropped of the face of the earth and moved on, but once again shes a first. she was the first girl to make me "studder" and the first girl i truely loved. i could keep going on with the "first" lists but that'd be weird and lame. i may have blown up twice in this whole thing..but im still so happy and proud of myself for the way ive handled this..i hope she sees that. anyone else would have gone crazy and been creepy and lame. i guess i just hope she can atleast see that. the one thing i wish i could do better though is be friends with her. i lost a best friend. i miss being close with her.

she was there at the beginning of MF, i would also talk to her about it for endless hours. now she and MF are gone. it'd be so rad if i could call her, but i dont have the guts.

i may tell her that it's both our faults but it's not true. it's my fault..and that hurts the most. I'll never forgive myself. Now im not being sappy...so don't think that. im just typing my thoughts. i can't dwell on how i was, the past is the past, ive learned. I hope i somehow can make it up to her. shes an amazing person, i only held her down.

i can't forget all the little things that added up to make us so great. the nicknames, the secrets we kept, the time spent. god damn senor antonio...

i got two tickets to see cursive...that was prolly dumb. oh well